When I first went to a church (never expecting to go repeatedly) I
had a level of creative block so bad I literally couldn't force myself
sit down and draw a picture no matter how perfect the conditions were, and
despite how much I love to draw pictures.
Near the end of the year 2017 I was prayed over intensely by a group of
people, and while I was very much not a Christian at the time I was
(in fact I would do a certain amount of my artwork
on Sunday just to be outrageous to anyone who might come into my life and happened to be
Christian) that day I gave not my life (as the people praying over me were
asking me to do) but my creativity to Jesus Christ.
Within the week following it was like a flood gate had opened. I was back to drawing
(though not back to doing what I had been doing here on
espdigiart.com still for several months)
and not long later I had some other old art projects that
personal situations had forced me to shelve and I was returning to and finishing
up, though I still have some that at this point are shelved due to a personal
situation.
In a million years I would never have expected (especially given that I was by no
means a Christian at the time or even keen on becoming one at that moment) that
kind of result. However in that instance looking back it shouldn't surprise anyone
that was the result as my then
creative block among numerous
other things was a direct result of the spiritual crisis was in the midst of at the time.
And while at the time I had foreseen for a couple years already that I was going
to have a point where doing some learning about Jesus was going to be in order if
anyone had told me that one of my earliest points in that process would look like that
at any point before exactly that happened, or that I would have the extensive changes
in my spiritual life (or even openness to them) that I have had since then I would have
told them that insanity was a term that didn't even start to cover that kind of crazy,
no matter how fitting the whole thing proved to be looking back.
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